“We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That's who we really are
I use glass gallon jars (sun tea jars) of fresh spring water from a source nearby. Today, I brought a couple jars inside and sat one by Zen’s water dish for convenience. I scurried around getting lunch and such. As I went by Zen’s dish, the toe of my boot slammed up against the jar DUH! Needless to say, not good, as the jar broke, splitting open, with water rushing out onto the floor.
So, here is the deal that I realize in hindsight. In that split second I had a choice: a) get all in a tizzy, cussing, and such. Or, b) get towels and start mopping up the mess.
Now, the old Sandra definitely would have been consumed by choice “a”. However, much to my surprise, the current Sandra did not issue one cuss word, bemoan my fate, or even throw up my hands in disgust. I surprised myself by quietly grabbing nearby towels and addressed the clean up of broken glass and puddles of water.
So maybe all the spiritual tools that I have recently chosen to include in a daily practice have gained some momentum, which allows me to remain calm in an unexpected and taxing situation, as in today’s event.
That being said, I am not even close to feeling secure that I will make the same choice (as I did today) in some future event by totally not losing my cool. Far from it. I understand the fact that it is a “choice” between light and dark that resides inside me. And, the norm, up until now, is the dark side can come out in a vexing moment.
But today was indeed a star on my tally sheet indicating some progress in my quest to become a calm, peaceful human. Next!